For me, there was some merit in fighting my disorder (and in a certain sense, myself and my past too). However, in recent years, I’ve realized that while fighting the disorder, myself, and my past may have been an integral part of my recovery, so has been the process of letting go.
Letting go of anger, guilt, shame, perfectionism, low self-esteem, and a plethora of other traits that I don’t find too attractive in myself. “Letting go” has been a difficult concept for me to grasp. Although I’m doing it, I’m still not sure of myself…I still don’t completely trust the process of letting go.
But that’s alright. I’ll get it someday. In the meantime, I try not to work so hard at recovery and I try to search out those people who can help me along the way.
Have any of you had a similar experience?
Here is a link I’d like to share with you. Even if you aren’t a fan of classical music, you may enjoy this. At least, I hope you do.